Love unfolds with every shade of the rainbow.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Faceless Enemy

           Your greatest enemy is always yourself, whispering things in your ear to prohibit change.
           "I'm not good enough."
           "He'll never want me."
           "I'm not pretty."
           "I'm so fat."
           Look at yourself, and really do peer into a mirror. You're never going to be a greater than you are right at this moment. You're beautiful, and wonderful the way you are. You're so able to change yourself at a whim. You can make yourself look different, change your personality, change the characteristics of it, and isn't that lovely? Never being confined to a blue print someone has set out for you, be it the idols on television or the people of society.
         The voices in your head that always speak out against you, saying things that you hate to hear, have you ever considered changing them? You have the power, the choice to erase the voices that you don't want to hear. After all, its only your subconscious. Train yourself, your mind, to whisper things that may alleviate your fears, your hurting heart.
         Tell yourself:
         "I'm worth it."
         "I am pretty."
         "People care about me."
         "I look right, just for me."
         "And God loves me."
         Even if you think you have no one, or that no body understands you, or thinks highly of you-think again. I think highly of you, and God loves you more than anything. And apart from that-what others think of you, doesn't really matter. What YOU think of yourself, is what matters. If you put yourself down, tell yourself that you're not worth anything, the only thing you're doing is making yourself worthless in your own eyes.
         Give yourself a chance. Don't let yourself get down, and don't compare yourself to others, because you're an original work of art, all on your own. And you're beautiful to me.

Friday, August 5, 2011

Sometimes I Just Wish on a Star

            Twilight to starlight. A simple title, and a simple beauty to it. Its not overly complicated-the ideal can be understood with little to no thought. Its a stretch of time, of space and matter. And by the way its described, spoken of, it can be seen with great general radiance. The words alone utter a silent, glittering thought. Vain and trivial, yet serene, necessary to convey what otherwise couldn't be said. And with that, I am the same.
           My name. My name alone confirms and explains who I am. Not many know what it is, my true name being so, and sadly-most of those who know don't understand. Names define who you are, or so I believe. I can look at a person, hear their name, and utmostly define who they are by the consensus of their title. Christian, Stephen, Tina, Krisa, Nadine-and I read into the letters, the meaning behind each particular name. Who are they, behind the mask they wear? The name they keep?
           Christian. Strong, honorable, impulsive, earthy, humble, complicated but simple at the same time. Tina is beautiful, simple, educated, playful, loyal, and understanding; a true friend. Krisa is bubbly, flamboyant, a trifle immature, flickering dimly in the after-tides of necessity, or want.
           Every name has a meaning, a definition. It often describes who a person is, their personality, or even how one views you. More often than not, I demand myself to know and comprehend the meaning behind names that are known, viewed and true of the people I associate with. Because part of who they are will always come out in the trouble of their name.
           Such as my name. It explains a lot of who I am, where I've come from. Tragedy, short lived, impatient, playful, teasing, harsh, understanding, intolerant. An ever flickering paradox, always contradicting upon everything inside me, characteristic wise. I was never able to stand being only one person within me. So I've grown to be many, many personalities, characters, facets of the same stone. And after all, what good would it do to be only one dimensional?
          When a name stands alone, it is only one dimension. It can say only so much, and it is left in the hands of the one who wears it, to explain, define, and examine who they truly are. So that the rest of their lives, they aren't simply living in the same one dimension that their name has defined for them. A complete person will have many dimensions, facets, sides and personalities. A person with only one dimension, will be lonely, self absorbed, and platitudious.
         Live, understand, and read on for yourself in the book of life, to become a more full person. Don't define yourself by who you're with. Don't always follow after your feelings, because they can lead you astray. Think with your mind, feel with your heart, and have conviction with your soul.
         Find who you want to be in your heart, your mind, and your spirit-and then become that person. Find out who you are, and be assured of yourself. Don't let others tell you who you are, but let yourself be the one for whom tells yourself, and others-who you truly are.
        Be more than just your name.